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From Atheist to Catholic

‘Unshakable’ Rationalist Blogged Her Way Into the Church

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by Nona Aguilar, Register correspondent Friday, Mar 13, 2009 8:04 AM Comments (6)

Jennifer Fulwiler “always thought it was obvious that God did not exist.”

Fulwiler grew up a content atheist. Having a profound respect for knowledge, particularly scientific knowledge, Fulwiler was convinced that religion and reason were incompatible. Not surprisingly, she was also emphatically anti-Christian and, especially, anti-Catholic. “Catholic beliefs seemed bizarre and weird,” she says.

Fulwiler would have been astonished to know that she and Joe Fulwiler, her husband, would come to embrace those “bizarre,” “weird” beliefs. On Easter 2007, they entered the Catholic Church with deep joy and a sense of coming home — and a blog aided their conversion.

Register correspondent Nona Aguilar spoke to Jennifer Fulwiler about the couple’s unexpected journey.


There is always a first step that leads to belief in God. What was yours?

Thanks to meeting and knowing my husband, I learned that belief in God is not fundamentally unreasonable. We met at the high-tech company where we both worked. Joe believed in God — something that, fortunately, I didn’t know for a while.


Why was that fortunate?

To me, belief in God was so unreasonable that, by definition, no reasonable person could believe in such a thing. I felt I could never be compatible with someone that unreasonable. Had I known that Joe believed in God, I would never have dated him.


What was your reaction when you found out?

It gave me pause. Joe is too smart — brilliant, really, with degrees from Yale, Columbia and Stanford — to believe in something nonsensical. I also met many of his friends. They, too, are highly intelligent — some with M.D.s and Ph.D.s from schools like Harvard and Princeton — and believed.

None of this made me believe in God, of course, but I could no longer say that only unreasonable or unintelligent people believe.


What caused you to consider the question more seriously?

I have always been a truth-seeker, which is why I was an atheist. But I had a prideful, arrogant way of approaching questions about life and meaning. I now realize that pride is the most effective way to block out God so that one doesn’t see him at all. Certainly, I didn’t.

The birth of our first child motivated me to seek the truth with humility. I can’t emphasize this point enough: Humility, true humility, is crucial to the conversion process.


Most atheists are unchanged after their children’s births. Why were you so affected?

First, I had already begun thinking about the possibility of God’s existence. After our son’s birth, I wanted to know the truth about life’s great questions — for his sake. For the first time, I was motivated to seek truth with true humility. For example, I began reading, studying, and thinking about the great minds. Most, if not the majority, believed in some other world, some higher power, a god or gods — something. Even the great pre-Christian thinkers like Plato, Aristotle and Socrates believed.

Another avenue of exploration: I always revered the great scientists, including the founders of the significant branches of science. Very few were atheists. Indeed, some of the greatest were profoundly believing Christians.


It could be argued this was because they were steeped in the Christian culture and beliefs of their times.

That ignores a larger question I began asking myself: Is it really likely that great minds like Galileo, Newton, Kepler, Descartes and others didn’t know how to ask tough questions? Do these people seem to be men who didn’t know how to question assumptions and fearlessly seek truth? Of course not.


Was your husband a help in this process?

Eventually, but not at first. Religion wasn’t something we talked about. Joe was a non-churchgoing Baptist, which was fine by me. In fact, since I was an atheist, I considered not talking about God to be a good compromise. Our lives were completely secular — just like our wedding.


No church wedding?

Definitely not! I wore a purple dress; we married in a theater with a friend officiating, using vows we wrote ourselves. The ceremony took seven minutes, then we all partied all night long. In fact, we didn’t even technically get married at our wedding: We did that at city hall a few days before.


Was there ever an aha moment that finally made you abandon atheism?

Several, but one in particular actually shocked me.

I asked myself two questions: What is information? And: Can information ever come from a non-intelligent source?

It was a shocking moment for me because I had to confront the fact that DNA is information. If I remained an atheist, I would have to believe that all the intricate, detailed, complex information contained in DNA comes out of nowhere and nothing.

But I also knew that idea did not make sense. After all, I don’t look at billboards — which contain much simpler information than DNA — and think that wind and erosion created them. That wouldn’t be rational. Suddenly, I found that I was a very discomfited atheist.


Is that the point at which you began to believe in God?

No. But now I was a reluctant atheist. I had lots of questions but knew no one who might have answers: I had always consciously, deliberately distanced myself from believers. So, coming from the high-tech world, where did I go for answers? I put up a blog, of course! I started posting tough questions on my blog.

One matter stood out from the beginning: The best, most thoughtful responses came from Catholics. Incidentally, their answers were consistently better than the ones from atheists. It intrigued me that Catholics could handle anything I threw at them. Also, their responses reflected such an eminently reasonable worldview that I kept asking myself: How is it that Catholics have so much of this all figured out?


Was your husband helpful to you at this point?

As I started telling Joe some of the answers that I was getting, especially from Catholics, his own interest in religion — and Catholicism — was piqued. We have always been a great team, so it was wonderful that we were exploring these issues and questions together, especially since we were so anti-Catholic.


Both of you?

Yes. I thought the Church’s views on most things, but especially marriage, contraception and abortion (since I was then ardently pro-choice), were simply crazy. Joe’s anti-Catholicism, while different, was stronger and more settled. He didn’t understand any Catholic doctrine or apologetics, so he fell into a stereotyped view of Catholics, thinking that they made idols of the pope and Mary, etc. Also, it never really occurred to him to take seriously the idea that Jesus founded one Church. He just assumed the way to pick a church is to find one that fits your personality.


Your conversion has impacted your daily life. What change, in particular, stands out in your mind?

Community! There is nothing like it in atheism. I never understood what people meant by members of the Church being part of the body of Christ, but now I really get it. By being part of the one, holy Catholic Church, there is a palpable connection I now have with other Catholics, even people I don’t know. It’s been amazing to experience that connection and community.

Nona Aguilar writes

from New York City.

JENNIFER FULWILER'S BLOG IS: ConversionDiary.com

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Posted by Johnno on Monday, May 24, 2010 7:34 AM (EST):

Great article! I was born and baptized as a Catholic, but slowly started to move away from my faith and sin an awful lot. But it was Christian apologetics that brought me back. Particularly the same stuff that atheists deal with regards to science. I researched criticisms of evolution and looked up Young Earth Creationist sites and defenses of the Biblical account of Genesis and it was overwhelming how much I didn’t know! Many of the evidences, such as the argument of where information comes from and how evolution cannot account for it along with many other evidences and the understanding of competing philosophical worldviews in the scientific world completely demolished evolution, and I could trust the Bible to be inerrant, and subsequently the Catholic Church for providing the Bible; and if the Bible is inerrant, then the Catholic Church must also have an infallible authority to produce it and teach and lead us! Biblical Creationism and apologetics and Catholic apologetics and Church history are invaluable for spreading the truth in a world so deceived by selfishness, atheism and false science and false philosophies. More people need to wake up!

Posted by Carmen Xuereb on Thursday, Dec 30, 2010 4:45 PM (EST):

I read with great interest Mrs. Jennifer Fulwiler’s return to the Catholic Faith. As she well expressed, it is with humility that we can understand what seems so unclear to us.  Christ Himself said, ” Learn from me that I am merciful and humble of heart”. Mrs. Fulwiler as a really intelligent person made her research and God who showers graces on each and everyone, did give her the grace of conversion which she did not ignore. Science and religion do not contradict each other but explain the existence of each other. We read in the Book of Wisdom, “It is the fool who says there is no God”. The belief in the existence of God give us a great reassurance. Evil exists because of so many unbelievers.

Posted by anon on Friday, Feb 11, 2011 4:30 AM (EST):

“evil exists because of so many non believers.” What kind of crazy statement is that? In case you didn’t know but the prison systems are jam packed full of believers of various religions and the smallest demographic belong to the atheist and agnostics. People who do have some sort of faith are the ones who commit the crimes and yet somehow you are able to say that non-believers are immoral and unethical. Makes no sense whatsoever. It also doesn’t sound like you payed much interest because if you did read it you would have read that it said she grew up a content atheist. that would mean no return to the cathlic faith. An intelligent person would research into multiple religions and not just take in whatever people say without evidence. your slanderous words are insulting and so is your belief system. You promote pedophiles and rape and still have the nerve to say that non-believers are the evil ones. You are sick in the head and should seriously seek mental help. I would have never hoped to bash on someone for their beliefs but your little comment was by far too much to handle. You should learn to be more tolerant and accepting to people of different backgrounds. We make no progress as a civilizations because of idiotic and moronic religions who spread nothing but wide spread panic and hate towards your fellow man unless they believe what you do. Grow up already and help the human race by spreading peace and not hate. you should be turning that finger around and aim it at yourself for it is you who are the evil and wicked one. Makes me sick to my stomach.Anyways I’m finished
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Posted by Will on Sunday, Jun 5, 2011 7:17 PM (EST):

It’s futile to argue that science disproves religion.  It’s just as futile to argue that religion explains science.  Science looks at the evidence, then draws conclusions.  Religion begins with the conclusion, then finds evidence to support it.

Posted by Mike on Wednesday, Jun 8, 2011 4:17 PM (EST):

“Evil exists because of nonbelievers.” I can understand why this comment offended some, but it is only an opinion. However, opinions must be supported by evidence to support your statement. That assertion gives me no reason to believe your statement. On the other hand, this statement does not mean that catholics promote pedophiles or rape. While it can be said that the Catholic church hid the reports of molestation from the public, it does not mean all catholics support this action. “A few rotten apples does not necessarily make the apple tree rotten.” All in all, human beings commit evil on their own choice. If we believe that devils tempt us or God wants us to do certain things, where is our personal responsiblity? As human beings, we are born to think and reason. Thus, using this skill will allow human beings to understand the world they live in.

Posted by Frank on Tuesday, Jul 26, 2011 12:44 AM (EST):

I am a Catholic myself and I am spreading a word. I understand the anger of atheism because like she said on her article, Pride is a way to block your faith from God.

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